Wednesday, August 31, 2005

YIPEE !!!!
I have escaped from working in Manchester. From the arduous slog of driving into a major city.
I have been offered a new job (within the same company). The new job is located at Warrington. This means I will be travelling 20 miles a day instead of 50 miles a day.
I suppose another big plus is that I am not travelling into a big city, but into a town instead. I will be driving on a normal road and not on congested motorways and dual carriageways.

I had the interview last Thursday 25 August and they rang me on the following day to say I had been accepted for the job.
On Friday, my current manager was really miffed and said he would not let me go ! Isn’t it nice to feel wanted ! I spoke to the Union and the HR people and was advised he could not block me from moving jobs.

Strangely on Tuesday when I returned to work he took me on one side “Over the weekend I have been thinking. I don’t like to stand in the way of someone so I have reluctantly decided to let you go”. Yeah its because you have to – not because you want to.

Of course, being the worrier I am, I am apprehensive about the new job. I have picked over it in my mind and looked at all the negative points and turned them over and over.

I must remember to look on the positive side and look at what I am gaining and not what I am losing.
The fact that the office where I am currently working is due to close at the end of the year. Where we were going to be relocated was very much in the air. Probably Stockport, or somewhere that is not much better, and probably worse for me travelling. At least know where I am going !!!

I am still walking on cloud nine at the moment. I hope that soon I will come down to earth and settle down and not be so stressed about the whole thing.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Been to Sarah's funeral today. It was painful in many ways.
I am still suffering with my back pain.

I met people at the funeral they I have not seen for over ten years, some that were old friends and some that I would rather not remember.

It acts as a reminder as to just how fragile we are. Sarah messed up her medication. She had an epileptic seizure in the bathroom and her neck became wedged on the sink. Unfortunately the weight of her unconscious body cut off her air supply and the blood supply to her brain and by the time she was found, she was dead. She was resuscitated by her husband and was on a life support machine for several days until brain stem tests showed she was dead.

A sad and tragic end for a girl who was so carefree and full of life.

Friday, August 05, 2005

At the moment I am off work due to bad health.
Today I have done as little as possible. It felt wonderful to just have no 'targets' and to just please myself. It felt really indulgent.
Normally every minute of every day is planned out for me. I am owned by other people.

I am a very nice person.

Perhaps A little too nice.

I should really let my true self come out in my blog. Anyone who reads this does not know me personally, and through the anonymity of the medium, I should be able to drop my facade.
Like everyone, I am different things to different people. My big problem is that I am a proud person and I want to be liked, and thought well of by other people. Why do I want this? Because I have been conditioned by life to think like this.
Maybe I just want the things I can least have? The most unobtainable things.

My daughter has no job, very little in possessions and no capital. She is in a relationship with another woman. She appears to be happy.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Thanks to BW for this :-

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate
You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Things seem to be settling down with my dad at last. He seems to be more self sufficient, and we are just feeding him in the evenings. (Sounds like a dog!!!)
He is feeling better except he is still not sleping well and this is getting hem down. He is now paying for counselling...It must be serious for him to part with his money.

I had some shock news today. I friend of ours rang to tell us that her daughter Sarah died on Sunday. She was only 29 with a husband and 3 children.
For many years Sarah was a best friend to my daughter. My wife and myself were Godparents Sarah.
She has inherited epileptic fits from her mother and she died from a massive Epileptic seizure.
Pretty rare and very shocking. I am stunned.