As I look at the history of my postings, I can see they are pretty boring and don't really reflect the true me. I am just too aware of people and cannot relax enough to express myself properly.

The result is a really boring person.

For example, I look at my life, I reflect on my past and I suppose (like every one else) that I could have made better choices, better life changing decisions. I know one shouldnt look back in this way, maybe its a sign I am unhappy?